Sunday, July 27, 2008

A Dewy fresh morning at Deer Park

One morning at about 5:30 am in summers, (a Saturday, as other days am fast asleep & would get up only later to go to office), my mom woke me up asking me whether I would accompany her, to her usually brisk morning walks. After a lot of tossing & turning on the bed, I dragged myself out, got dressed & hit the by lanes which led to the Deer Park.

The entrance to this “Morning Paradise” (as my mom called it), was dusty & looked like a burnt-out forest. The dust beneath was covered with scattered dry leaves & small trails created, leading to various tracks within the park. We took the one facing the iron grills with lots of Deers & some Barasingha’s & Pea hens & cocks behind it. As the road bend, we were eventually thrown into what was really a paradise in itself. What I saw was a lake with ducks wading in; all in whites & grays. Right in the centre was a mass of trees, what looked like an island. Spotlights shaped like stone boats had been placed within the lake, which I imagined would illuminate the lake & its surroundings when dark. This was surrounded on one side by an old fort beautifully clad in heavy beige colored stones. The other side unleashed a lush green ensemble filled with people of all age and from all walks of life, jogging, walking, chit-chatting, doing yoga asana. The sun was slowing rising from behind the lake & golden streaks of sunshine reflected in the water. The day break was welcomed by all alike, the chirping birds, the Deers, the rabbits. The mystifying ambience had something about itself; a belongingness. A certain depth to bind to itself and not let go. I was most enchanted by its exuberance.

I had just about started savoring this gift of nature when some shrilling squeaks distracted me. To my dismay, as I looked towards the lake what gathered my attention were a few kids trying to scare away the ducks. What annoyed me more was that neither the officials of the park were around to give instructions to people to stay away from the lake; neither did a passerby care to ask the children to stay off. I had somehow just about managed to ask the children to move away from the lake, when I saw that a batch of people had just left finishing their daily routine of exercises and chit-chats and left behind disposable cups of tea that they had just finished. Just round the corner I found a bin lying which read “Use Me” & seemed unused for ages. I decided to gather all this and get rid of them.

On our way back we followed the same track as we did while entering. Just as we reached the iron grills packed with Deers, round the corner a tilted board read “Please do not feed the animals anything” & right next to it I found people stuffing their (Deer’s) mouth with either breads or leafy vegetables or left outs of the dinners that they had had the previous nights. And the packets left unwanted either outside the grill or inside it. Though I was very put off with the way people were spoiling the atmosphere within the “Morning Pradise”, I somehow gathered myself and caught hold of an official explaining him my experiences one by one. All he replied was Kya karein Madam Ji, Koi suntan hi nahi. Ap apna time kyon barbad karte ho. I realized his helplessness and following all the embarrassment that I had faced, I quickly left the place thinking to myself that this place was chosen by the nearby residents for their early morning walks, not only due to its proximity but the calm & serene ambience that it was bearing and providing its lap as a relief to all who visited. But unfortunately we all were selfish. We took back good health, a fresh green ambience and so many good things from her but in return left this place dirty, polluted and waiting for ages, for the its visitors to realize how important it was to keep the surroundings clean so that they could experience the freshness every morning. My experience which had started with a new & fresh experience ended in dismay.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Indian Politics & Common Man

What I saw yesterday (21st July '08) on possibly all news channels was nothing but a mockery of Indian Politics. What was going on was nothing but an attempt by parties to oust or topple the other. The Nuclear Deal wasn't even the topic to ponder. What MPs were most concerned about were how to raise their voices and prove the opposition wrong. Well I would want to add to this that, do all MPs know each clause included in the deal and have they ever thought about the pros & cons if any?

The "Common Man" of Laxman, an old man clad in dhoti hasn't improved ever since. Well he doesn't care what the Nuclear Deal is about or why mid-term polls are required. All he knows is inflation and the consequences, poverty & unemployment; his family and how to give them a comfortable life. Why and what is politics, he is not concerned with. The endless and never ending parliament sessions & the mob of journalists thronging the parliament; are all worthless for the Common Man.

Discussions on the nuclear deal has been on for a long time. What ideally the MPs should have done, along with the government is, discuss out the clauses and ponder on the benefits that could work out for the country and what ways it could harmful. But Alas!!! All this has boiled down to unnecessary vote outs and long parliament sessions.

An MP has long forgotten what role he has to play as people's representative. It’s just become a rat race for the throne and the powers & money involved in it; the Common Man is left behind after the hungry politicians have stuffed themselves with votes. The Common Man is left alone to then ponder on how he will fight poverty and the inflation.

I, as an individual, as an Indian, would request the common man to vote wisely and think before casting your votes. We need to rise to the situation and cause an alarm for the Politicians who are busy fighting out for their selfish motives.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Love: In Its True sense

We all fall in love, without knowing its destination or without a thought or two on who is it and where they are leading to. "Love knows no boundaries", "Its blind"... n number of times we have heard this, but we have never tried to decipher its true meaning. Love varies from platonic to physical, from one-night stands to a life-long relationship. But it’s more of an emotional string which pulls two people together, not physically but emotionally. The depth of it is unknown. Its being has the power to engulf or swallow the ones involved, completely and without even letting the participants know of the wave that has come and gone by. It is a feeling, an emotion that flows through the heart to the mind which then stores it as a beautiful memory. This then comes alive whenever it gets attracted to a being with the same flow of emotions.


All I can say is that it is highly contagious, a beautiful feeling which fills our lives with various hues and brightens up like a golden streak of sunlight. Affection attracts love and spreads further. So catch it before it flies past and your hands are empty. Fill your pockets full and endure this emotion for a lifetime.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Who Am I ?

The other day I read this book by Preethi Nair called "The Color of Love" which talks about this lady who after lots of turmoil gives up her flourishing career, her love life, her wedding and even her parents house to just follow her instincts. Her childhood hobby and her attempt to run away from everything and everybody leads her to become a celebrity and ultimately win the Turner Prize.

I often wonder why is it that we simply tend to give up everything 'coz somebody else wants us to do so. Our identities have completely evaporated. Priority always remains what the other person feels but not what we want. I still don't know who I'm... A daughter, a wife, a sister, a friend. I still wonder the day I'm able to find and describe the real me I would have just followed my instincts and would not have to think about anything but what I want to do.

Rise! Create an identity for yourself and know & do what you want & believe in not what others want you to be.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Meet & Depart

Didn’t realize the other day what it feels to be departed from the loved ones or what one goes through when one moves away. Meeting & parting are the ways of life; but to go through the feeling of loosing someone important in your life has always been with me. Family being the soul of ones life was for me too. From childhood to now has been a journey full of love, life, family & friends.

For every child Grandparents have always been a source of fun, enjoyment, tons of pampering, foundation of knowledge, family values and a bundle of surprises. Sooner I realized that, made it an integral part of my system, I started cherishing the moments of my life with and around my grandparents. From the first footsteps to the innumerable broken toys, from the journey of the school to gifts on the birthdays, this was the world to me.

Day1: Early morning suddenly the news comes of my grandpa’s demise. Shock engulfed the whole family. Though I was too young to understand the true meaning of death, I soon realized the vacuum it had created in my life.

Day 2: My Cousin, this little sister of mine, the twinkling star in the family. During her short period of stay with us on earth, she made everyone happy around. She fulfilled my want of having a little sister (a doll), in my life. The smile, the naughtiness, the intelligent girl next door, all this filled or lives with joy. But Alas! This was it. Her illness didn’t let her stay long amongst us, and I still long for a cute little sister like her.

Day 3: My Best Friend – My Dad. I couldn’t imagine life without him. He guided me like a friend, philosopher & guide. From my first words, to my first smile, my first day at school to my exams, from studies to movies, he knew every bit and I confided in him religiously every small or big experience that I had. But his sudden illness and those hard times of lying besides his head and trying to give some comfort, made me realize that I was on the verge of loosing the strength in my life, my sole being and my entity was evaporating and all was in vain as every moment the dark clouds of worries and thoughts filled my mind. Soon I lost my shelter for life. While the days went by caring about my mom and all that I could do to keep her happy, and the want to somehow try and get back a smile on her face was my sole aim, I couldn’t keep my mind off the emptiness that was created in my life and has never been filled ever since.

All these losses have made me stronger from within. The emptiness has created an urge to make friends and to be emotionally bonded with each, to make them a part of my family. Friendship has given my life a new meaning. It has taught me the beauty of staying together, the beauty of staying in touch. My mother is now my greatest friend. My colleagues are my second family and I cherish each relationship. There still happens some departing, but with a promise to stay in touch and to cherish the joy of togetherness for ever ‘n’ ever…

Shades Of Nature

The water droplets from the early morning dews
On the lush green hues

The blue-black rooftop studded with diamonds & pearls
The balls of soft cotton with silvery grey curls

The leafy green carpet below
The scented breeze over it blows

Snowy mountain peaks
With rushes of golden streaks

Crystal clear water flowing through
With shining pebbles in the crew

Blooming colors on flowers all around
Filled with bubble bee sounds

Gushes of wind & hailstorm
Breaks open the norm; Reduces the calm


The waves curl up to the sky
The serenity is lost; trees fall apart and its all dry

Molten lava & tremors
Earth has lost its temper

Tornadoes fly past
Its coming to an end so fast
These are the shades of nature…

My Angel…

She called me one but became one for me
Came from nowhere & conquered many a hearts did she

The warmth of Love, affection & Care spread across
The glow brightened the paths to cross

No words, no action were required to express
The silence would bring out thousands out of distress

The Naughty smile, creative hands, a thinking brain
No one could capture this angel. Alas!!! All in vain

Vanished she with a promised to come back
It’s barren around… No sound

Silence & Darkness all around
No help all hands bound

But am happy…

The laughter, the smile, the naughtiness has filled up my empty life…
Until she is back, sweet memories engage me
My Angel…